Well, I woke up this morning as per usual.
I wrote that last email to my former colleagues in the BBC – the handover for the project. The document had been niggling me all weekend. How could I have ran out of time to write it on my last week?
So that’s sent. And I’ve just called the insurer to give them some details about a home emergency claim we’ve made. They’re going to call me back to confirm we’re covered (they just have, we are).
Now what?
This is the moment I knew would come. The moment of fundamental realisation that I don’t have a job to go to.
It feels odd. Slightly numbing.
I’ve got a few things I need to do today to keep myself occupied:
- Travel to the BBC to return the work laptop (they let me keep it over the weekend)
- Clean the house – I agreed with Sofia that I would. I get so busy with work I don’t get around to doing it and then she begrudgingly does it. My turn to make up for many occasions of neglect!
- Change the light switch the in the kitchen
Hmmm, not exactly the cutting edge of new media, technology and internet.
(Oh and as I write this someone from another apartment has just started playing a trumpet – never heard that before. Clearly they do it when we’re all “at work”. Except now my work is at home. Oh dear.)
However I do also have a few other things on my list:
- Update this blog. It needs a new template, I’ve decided. I also need to put in details of my consultancy etc. Also I will probably stop putting in personal entries like this – maybe create a personal blog elsewhere.
- Decide whether I can realistically launch my Bit Torrent search engine. It’s been running in stealth for almost a year but I couldn’t release it whilst working for the BBC. But could it equally be a mute point for clients and future potential employers? Probably. But then you’re only young once 🙂
Well, I’m not feeling any more inspired from writing this, but at least you know how I feel!
you cant get rid of that cool light switch :O
have a strum!
I know the feeling. I have just finished university and for the first time in 3 years I don’t have an assignment to do or a lecture to attend.
It is a bit disconcerting.
You could always watch Countdown and Deal or no Deal…..
document the mundanity of a dotcom post-nearly man. you’d have to chuck out the PC and related gadgets. then see what kind of horror awaits. it would be akin to big brother only not nearly as gay or girly or freaky… my hypothysis being that you’d fall apart within days. 😛
I found it beneficial to hang out in nature away from technology, and what a great time of year to do so. It will get you away from what you have known previously and and help you to de-institutionalise yourself. I found that it helped me to better understand what I wanted out of life and that working for other people or organisations was not going to take me where I wanted to be. I hope it works for you.
The Bit Torrent search engine sounds interesting. Might I ask how it would differ from typing ‘filetype:torrent xyz’ into Google?
You mentioned a handover to your former colleagues at the BBC. Who is the contact now to get prototypes listed on Backstage? Also, if you hear of any projects in need of some Virtual Reality, please let me know 🙂
All the best Ben
-This is the moment I knew would come. The moment of fundamental realisation that I don’t have a job to go to.-
Been there before. Isn’t funny how it is altogther terrifying and exciting at the same time. Hang in there Ben.
Good day Stephen Elliot. I just got a letter dated 1/19/12 from Lorelie Lee in an envelope from you. We have no idea whatsoever how I got on your list. But I’ll write Lorelie back (a real letter, even), because it was pretty fucking brave of her to write that.